Love is a kind of good feeling, everybody yearns for the love that gets he wants. But, love is to be able to treat the thing that cannot try however, should rely on lot to just can get. Love is the thing of bilateral face, not be one-sided is paid can get love. So love needs us to keep watch, the time that uses lifetime goes keeping watch.
What is love? Grandfather grandma says: Love is parental life, the character of intermediary Shuo. Love bears children namely, pass ancestor receive era. Father mother says: Love is free love, love is marital agreement, love is old have a partner, have
Female we are taken care of beside. If you ask me what love is? I reply not to come out however. The love of older generation is so simple and pure, not impure any foreign matter. Where is the love that can you be us?
In one's childhood, do not know what is love. When go to school read, after reading a lot of book, just be full of to love look forward to. Liang Shanbai and Zhu Ying stage are changed for love butterfly, white a polite form of address for a young woman tower of for love peak of the thunder that be pressed, cowboy and Girl Weaver because of love be separated by the Milky way, meet every year through magpie bridge. is love is destined a tragedy? Is the person that love each other destined to cannot be together? At that time, book gave me the answer: Love is to be full of obstruction and manacle, get debar from holding office of traditional and feudal thought.
Was brought up, was full of to love expect with look forward to. What also leave at the beginning of Ceng Qing antrum is dark had loved a female classmate, but because oneself are the disabled and dare not profession to her. The sort of feeling lets my remain fresh in one's memory up to now. Do not know that calculates do not calculate love, but that schoolgirl is the girl that this life makes exclusively I am enchanted. From now on I look forward to love no longer, yearn for love no longer. Because of me self-abased, because of me cowardly, this life also cannot find his pleased partner possibly again. I have self-knowledge very much, resemble the disabled that I do not have ability so, the person that cannot give me love is happy, the dress warmly and ear one's fill that connects lowest even is debatable, I have what right to love others.
Love is to give, give the person that oneself love everything what she wants to have. If oneself cannot give others happiness, do not love one, that is irresponsible love. Irresponsible to oneself, irresponsible also to others.
Since this life cannot experience real love,once had thought, flat and lone calculated all one's life too. Do not love with respect to indolence, without burden and responsibility, a person is footloose pretty good also. What to go importuning why? Mix at my body condition relatively for ability: One individual more than sufficient, two people have bit of ability not equal to one's ambition.
But, as the accretion of the age, face the pressure of each respect, kin not tire of its console irritatedly, the double hair on the temples with greying with each passing day mother, all night not the gloomy mood of Mian, add after doing not have father, the desire with the greatest mother is I can get married stand room. Although she says before me everything is indifferent to, but the open-armed word that I know to that is not her, each is not willing to see oneself young man and woman when the mother is lone eventually old.
The mother holds a person in the palm to be my look for a partner in marriage everywhere, average person looks me to say with respect to what be perfunctory: "Without likely target " actually I know my pattern of one insecurity really pretty is fearsome, average woman student saw I am met avoid and far, can be the fault that this is not me, how can the person look appearance only? Who can withstand the pressure of each respect, go understanding me truly? A few kin that be close friends see us quite pitiful help make visit everywhere, for my act as a matchmaker. But a little a bit better do not look to go up I, those mental retardation, fat, cerebral paralysis (lose provide for oneself ability) did not know how to much see, I cannot cross myself from beginning to end.
As the accretion of the age, the person that replaces my act as a matchmaker is less and less also. Think originally this all one's life such, everything looks weak, no longer extravagant hopes any. Serve a mother eventually old later, the annulus that begins oneself swims countrywide dream, walk along where to calculate. But at this time, the thing happened a favourable turn, watch elder sister introduced her for me. Say her pretty is pitiful: Live in disharmonious family as a child, because domestic force suffers from,went up epileptic, intelligence quotient has the level of 78 years old of children only. Later her mother remarry, she was become " bottle pulling oil " had not gone up one day to learn, be by the lock every day in the home. So, her whats won't work, whats do not know to often say with people " fool " about the same.
Perhaps be to had been experienced so for many times date failure, perhaps be us the head is raised before bilateral family needs a paragraph of marriage to come in the person, perhaps be I and mother saw so called hope. Our both sides met to decide two marriage, had planned to look to marry again originally, but her mom browbeats however with her daughter we: Do not register do not let come to my home. We go civil administration bureau is registered, what does the family ask her to she does not know. The someone says I am no problem, of her mental retardation fierce, know what is to marry far from? Marry what to mean?
In bilateral parents entreat again and again below, cai Mian of civil administration bureau dealt with formalities hard for its. Next, did simple wedding according to custom namely. Tell the truth, I in heart of that paragraph of day very contradictory: Written guarantee after all do not marry? She is a child only, whats do not know. Marriage resembles child play house to her, I was full of worry to future.
Just as one would expect, after marrying her have a fit, making a noise to be troubled by should come home seek mother. Say every day for go even if so a few words are not her father mother it is her little sister. For this I had wanted to abandon really, we are not to marry at all, be in simply sportive ah. But, everything has been become finality, her parents becomes her at all " package " good cast me not easily, be taken how possibly again again?
She resembles now " passenger " come to my home stay a few days to making a noise to be troubled by should come home, I am very tired really, fool a child to fooling her euqally every day. If not be bilateral parents,give us pressure, I want to abandon this paragraph really " nominal " marriage. They still hold the possibility illusion, still do not think the jest that be become by the family will tell. Be but they think those who cross us,experienced? Rather such we are painful, be inferior to breakfast " unfixed " so right may not is not a favour for us.
Let me exclusively now stand fast reason of this paragraph of marriage is my heart that " commiserative heart " , do not know the reason that is me, I regard her as from beginning to end a child, do not have the least bit desire again besides.
Love is two the individual's things after all, not be our one's own wishful thinking is met resultful. I do not know us this paragraph " without love " marital general what course to follow, do not know I still can hold to how long, more do not know this paragraph of marriage to answer to should not keep watch, I can use up my greatest effort to try to accept her only, but time length and result cannot decide however.
Love cannot be importuned from beginning to end, marriage from beginning to end cannot loath. |
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