Small 5 it is me year of only sign in young memory. The summer that I remember that year he sticks the face on the window to see me, perhaps a lot of people do not agree -- the appearance that I what resent one year old remember him. Await in those days, he is a big eye young fat person, pieces of whole face is stuck in glass above, nose is flat resemble a doggie flatly. I think, when seeing him, I laughed yes certainly. The nursery school on me when, small 5 had been pupil. The stone that I write down so that he crouchs in the courtyard carries a text on the back above a block of wood or stone, his memory is bad, always relapse instead answer ground carries a word on the back, "Some people died, he is living still; Some people are living, he had died... " after a lot of years, I had sought these written languages on my Chinese textbook, just, did not find from beginning to end. Small the woman that of 5 is a model, culture of it doesn't matter, right small 5 always be be foul-mouthed. Then, often can see small the mom of 5 is taking a feather duster to hit him at the back, and small 5 crouch to holding ground of puff and blow of puff and blow of a bowl of noodle in the arms to eat aside. Now and then, still can raise a head to see me nearby, hey hey laugh twice. At that time, I am very strange why doesn't he cry, this problem perplexed me a lot of years all the time. I always feel, small 5 resembling is TV go up be out of shape King Kong, do not be afraid of those who hit. Small 5 pairs I am very good, unlike is other big, cold-shoulder this to help the child that drivel has not wiped. That moment fashionable plays vitreous ball. Dig a few small hole on the ground namely, play vitreous ball one by one next go in. Small 5 always catching ball of a glass, oneself leave 3 two, next other give me. Although I always am defeated by a with nothing left finally, but I or gladly fart bump fart bump follow in his back. After a lot of years, when I arrange a thing, discovered the ball of a few glass in the drawer, take look below sunshine, glittering and translucent get rid of appears, reflect the past of the move. Exclusive with small 5 at same a days of level, it is elementary school. In those days, I just went up elementary school one grade, small 5 crouch in graduation class to rise junior high. I always jubilate secretly in that paragraph of day, can appear with same status with him. But the fact had the differring with large minor volume with my selfish calculations however. I always am interrogative, why his red scarf always casts aside rearward wrinkledly, it is only before the bosom the red with small slouch one horn; Why his satchel never is carried on the back rightly go up in double shoulder, is to be hanged on right shoulder only, of leisurely of shake from side to side; Why to meet inside his school uniform pocket now and then the nest wore a piece to be revised by poor writing fractional examination paper... he always laughs at me however, the care of child home home is so eventful what to do. Have a period of time, I and his nest make game machine in his hut, the dynamoelectric toy of card can be inserted before the sort of early, enough lets our fritter away drop all afternoon days. Write down, when those, we are mad the passion of intense is worn fetch is fought collect, but I always follow at the back of him hinder sb, small 5 meet sometimes very angry say, hello, you quickly ah, wanted to die! My criterion always is crying to let him wait me a moment greatly. Then, a lot of moment, the red La Xiaoren in the television did not go much further in game, two people that crouch before the television hit posse. In those days, of the in full swing in TV sowing " machine cat " . After school, I follow small 5 always be punctual of the cerebrum bag guy that takes on sofa to await that blue appear, two people collect the flat range that money buys a bag of small coati. It is next in 40 minutes of only time, do not have what the heart does not have lung to burst out laughing. Old people always wonders why can the child that those are having same round eye in TV make us so happy. It seems that this is the childhood years of every child, children always are having the Bei that adult cannot understand to be fond of the world, be clear about what to love and what to hate however in so complex in how many person is returned again can? To machine cat love, see whether the fellow of a cerebrum bag can skip from inside to the between drawer in making I always pull open a desk suddenly like hair nerve. But often be only drawer rollback. When those, always thinking, have old hero only does in that way child ability have cat of a machine? Next very want, why the boy that oneself are not a dense bad. Of a lot of summer afternoon, sunshine is hit on prosperous and dense Chinese parasol tree, those finely silhouette sprayed one land with respect to what mottled. I am written in house full word of one page pane, raise a head, look outwards from the window. Small 5 fat fat body dog days is on the Shitaizi in the courtyard, the right hand controls rock to wear, do not know what to drawing. When wind has been blown, the noise of leaf rustle is ceaseless. I sneak away from house go out to bend over stealthily in small he looks on 5 backs what doing, small 5 before can going head explore always however in me, receive drawing paper. I laugh at his narrow-minded, he is being hit with a ha breath out call me to answer the study in house. Small when 5 litres enter junior high school, I am step-by-step continueing in so called artistic school classy unripe. Just, small the 5 worlds that faded out of me gradually, very a paragraph long in, I did not see he crouchs in the Tu Tu on the Shitaizi in the courtyard to write again, also did not carry a text on the back in what had seen him. He still just can accompany me to sit on sofa to see machine cat Lie wear now and then big mouth eats gong to burn, however no longer so ground of without rhyme or reason laughed. He can is like no longer crazy like the drunk animation that watchs, be in however of my fix eyes on when staring at TV screen, stealthily. A day, small 5 say to want to teach me to cycle, I was answering gladly to give the door. The bend over of my askew on board, cannot master a balance, small 5 follow at the back of the car, double closefisted is catching backlash closely, say with me he is at the back of me back, want me to come slowly. And I what feel inherently bad evenly, still fall heavily from the car. ground is crying, resembled sufferring how old like grievance, do not agree to sit to the car again. He is forced give u, laughing at me at the same time cannot eat to suffer from, help me flap again at the same time the clay on clean body. Then, I also did not learn how to sit on the bicycle to master a balance after all, small 5 also did not allude again the thing that teachs me to learn to cycle. After that in period of time, I am in charge of sitting in only small above the car backlash of 5, loud josh. He often says to me, fortunately I did not blossom an old fat person, it is while still alive wants only otherwise him tired dead. When those, still do not know days to be able to take us He Fang, feeling sure is thing. Then, I think junior high school is unripe unexpectedly is adult general again unmanned superintended. Small the mom of 5 as always be foul-mouthed, small 5 begin barefaced resistance however, I did not see he has been hit again, he is like is suddenly became lofty power violent man is common, the expression that nots allow to encroach is full of between eyebrow eye. And I, dare not follow in him to denounce a few glass bead to play after one's death again however. That paragraph of memory is gradually ambiguous to me, write down again how is removing him brought up after all, it is when the young fat person of head of foolish of that foolish head disappeared. What time seemed to just be moved a few times in me is domiciliary, the garment unlined upper garment that changed several season and gradually stack escapes in the examination questions of a certain number of paper box. I do not remember even, that place old house that once lived is when by overhaul, then square Shitaizi is in the courtyard when stack sundry; Still have in a lot of summer keep out is in that lofty phoenix tree of the top of head is when was being chopped limb, it stands all alone over, not language, I do not look to give it unexpectedly is unripe now it is dead. Be like me is was abandoned by days, in the life of the quadrature in the compasses in, I still remember machine cat is how to open aleatoric doorknob old hero to bring back when, and when opening TV again one day, machine cat has called a machine the cat no longer, people calls it, pull A dream more; I still am written down so that the water waterside hero inside a packet small coati blocks one yuan, still have a piece neat without collect, and one day, the clerk of the shop tells me small coati has disappeared on market a lot of years. I still am in the dream, think the completed study job that waits for oneself to follow the prescribed order, small 5 still can bend over to see me on glass, nose is flat the young fat person of flat big eye, I had not crossed him a lot of years adieu actually. 16 years old issued the winter of snow, I stand in first the doorway of school, see small 5 far the station is over there, the clip in the hand wore to light the cigarette of half. The baseball that he is wearing a black cap, wore calorie of feeble strange lubricious jacket, corpulent jeans, the bottom of a trouser leg is dilatory the line was taken off in what be ground on ashen sneaker. I just stand over, cannot move, all round very noisy, snow is big big fall down, above the eyelash that falls in me, very cool. Small 5 see me, throw smoke in aside, walk over to say, I will receive you to come home. I sit in small at the back of the autocycle of 5, wind is very cold, small knife is hit euqally on the face, very ache. I say, where do you go to? He did not hear my word, ask me, what do you say? I say, it doesn't matter. Actually I want to know very much, in that way in a paragraph of long time, where did he go to. I fail to ask exit from beginning to end however. I am only, that momently, I am behind him, appear however be apart a few centuries are so far. Later a day, small 5 find me to borrow a book. We go on the road, he draws out a smoke to smoke from the pocket. He bends a left hand to blocking wind, low the head comes a smoke light. I look at him, say, can I try? He stops offal pace suddenly, knitting brows to see me. A long time, hand me smoke. The suction with the deep appearance that I learn him readily, next choke must shed a tear, maintaining to death however without expectorate sound. He nods on one again, smoke at the same time see me at the same time, did not talk. I am low head, just feel constraint. So I cannot all the time follow his footmark, the road of everybody can oneself step down silently. Step the school gate of high school to me all the time, small 5 do not have reappear to pass. Whether is I often suspect him me year a in young memory psychedelic, without this individual, not once the joyous sound in how many summer laughs language. In the day after high school in residence, see small the odds of 5 resembles buying award of the head in lottery euqally insignificant. Now and then, I go old courtyard is visited, total meeting asks about him. Old person often of one face furious, shake next shake one's head, silent not language. If the day is lived euqally as one used to do, I plunge into the examination questions in pile and schoolbook in, pester in confused miscellaneous in delicate human concern. My life was destined to want to be being abided by it seems that such dry the contrail that is anounced by everybody however steps down, then, gradually, I am enchased by those in time a few trifling the its wrap up that escapes hard however rises, resemble be being stranded only the larva in chrysalis. Become eye blind, break cry. Watching night of not clear viatic in channel alone gropingly is ongoing, can hide silently inexpressibly only with fear in the heart. I begin to become become silent and become independent, walk between the multitude that because such configuration is enough,uses and not by be involved in among them. Have so a paragraph of day, I think I forgot small 5. Just walk on the avenue that be in when, raise a head to come accidentally, see sunshine crosses the branches and leaves with dense phoenix tree, still can absentminded recall that this in the top of head old tree in old courtyard. Then, I can know about small the complete information of 5 remained me only light. Such and the day of involved and abstruse arrives all the time tall in that winter vacation of one end. The season of the side of side of firecracker sound hover of New Year, the grandfather dies. In the hospital is frozen and long and narrow corridor, I see small 5. The baseball that he is wearing that black cap, wore brown fur clothing and corpulent jeans. I go by, the station is at the door ward, see the old person lies on white sickbed, the doctor stands in him beside doing final rescue. Aside custody implement on gules had proclaimed point-blank his death. I helplessly look at such once fresh die, without any omen ground the death of arise suddenly. Was to be full of later cry sound, calling sound, all kinds of person in and out, the doctor controls the medicines and chemical reagents in ward and apparatus, bedside scattered of one ground white medical absorbent cotton and deserted injection glass bottle... the blank that I just have his heart filled with, when facing death, those who have one's heart filled with is blank. My face about sees small 5, he is low head, I lose sight of his face. The next day, the person was swarmed in old courtyard. I and small in the 5 little rooms that stay in him. He smokes silently, I sit on sofa to hear outside case rise and fall of volt cry the delighted firecracker sound of sound is impure far, stayed next. He walks over to sit by me, hand my paper towel, say, did not cry. It is when dead happening in the festival of a such jubilation, it seems that everything by be involved in in a strange nest coming back. in ocean, I and small 5 sit in so narrow corner, by the world silent. That evening, I ask him, cannot return once upon a time? He looks at me, for a long time, just mouth sighed to say finally, some things, you are not clear. I raise a head to look at him to say, at least yourself's life is OK oneself choose, you do not have what in turning them into the mouth, say in that way, right? He was stupefied, the smoke with medium handle is pressed destroy. Say next, I do not choose, but cannot think of,you still can see me so. I see the shining in his eye, go by to hold him in arms next, say, I know you did not change, I know. He very emphatic holds me in arms, did not talk. The day later another be like as one used to do, I continue to immerse oneself in sea mile is inscribed in book hill, small 5 disappear like what I expect as before. Next, it is round round imitate takes an exam, what be full of at the moment is report and caboodle seem the exercise in school work with general Great Wall on the desk completely. The Anacreontic sunshine of summer, fade of double ended radius sleeker, dim winter is later, it is Chun Nuanhua leaves next... the life answers annulus move back and forth to wear so. I become aware oneself are one individual plant quiet growth plant, the place with yearning all the time the most obvious sunshine. Small 5 are that blast when I just sprouted, wind won't stay, I just keep thinking about the days in those days. The summer that goes out of cultivation after the university entrance exam, I shake in the idle on the street. Absentminded, see in opening of a market small 5. He did not notice me, then, I look at him to go far so. Actually, I want to say with him very much, elder brother, we come home. |
Orignal From: Small 5
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